feeling cold

re born of my mind
i don't know i am sick or not

i feel like need it again

cloudy nights kicking inside

ash of my tobacco showing sign of death

world is running after something else

crystals in my nose just sense smell of pure

splitting beings on surface

gathering my energy to find it

lots of noise here

my hand is up for this

my embalmer seems fade now

bitches on the road asking for assistance

please give me freedom from cactus closet

taste of it Is enough now

falling water in glass sounds like filling pillars

my blood is getting blue

deficient of something natural and look like ritual

people after me and hate me coz i close to you

indecent proposals falling on my way

breathing for you no matter the way i choose

where is fucking peace

smell like burning leather

playing games with my liquid mind
trying to open wired soul
i saw the open sky calling me for a deep drive
i am not feeling free in this massive world
want to run with blind dogs in streets
even feel like flying with the drop of rain
catching the dust of dessert and holding in hand
to make a fort and obey rituals
its paining a lot
burning cells and tissues bringing out smoke like leather
catholic soul breathing slowly
looking for col to go beyond peaks
rolling tears freezing here
oh! God where are you to hold
this carked soul of yours
milky red shades in eyes
to see master of this race
strings of hearts at heights
crawling to touch your portion
a stone is not enough
come closer come closer
don't lock me like at least not like this
give me spark to fight
no, who said to gave me birth here
take away take away now

loosing you!!!

I am still alive
I am still alive
what's the hell i am alive
ray o light is killing me, touching my heart and get away
who want me to wake up from deep personification
eyes goes down expecting someone to hold the soul
now why is world spinning around
yoou look like my friend
give me peace without asking the way where i want to go
why you look like the breed which i have seen in my black book
go away go away go away
i wana come down ...i wana come down
sparrows peeping into the face
feathers flying in the air
why is this day comes over happiness
am happy with my dark shit jerky friend
mid night spies
why after me why after me
smells like teen never leave me alone
thick fat thick fat over mind
food of my mind stolen by hoar
penniless beggar in open street
feed me in to deep ...take take the weight away from body
wait wait ..allow me to take a deep breath
lost lost lost lost ..the gifted outlook

massive internal complications

drunk a bunch of liquor bottle, hands are shivering-piece of newspaper flying around me creating noise and striking again again to break my peace, voice of crying child increasing the pulse of nerve. world is going against me slowly. feeling like alone in ghost island...nowhere to go. something happen to me very strange. inside feeling like go away farther and father....where where where...

i can not feel my soul...its dead now. there is no drop of liquor in the bottles. night is getting darker every moment. only few spices alive to survive and struggling with life and trying to knock others way. I want to make my own way where i need peace happiness and freedom. I am looking for a way which never ends where there is no addiction of breath. i want to betray this outlook given by God unnecessarily. I need my soul back, i cant bear the weight of this shell it is no use for me. I hate the freedom of wind, oh God give me the rights to flying like kites and birds. Take me back and fuse me in to rain, sand, wind and fire. this world is not meant for me i am feeling alone and need your support to trans me and forget about me.

why this is happening with me you put me in between where some has impose belonging boundaries. Its been very hard to live in this situation. slowly slowly decaying inside shell but it will take years to reach on my destination. please take care of them.