No body knows it

A name consist four letter become a cause of incurable sickness. Whenever i try to forget it, I really do not know from where to start cleaning out these shadow spaces of life. Here, I try thousand times a day to unchained from indecisive power and shadows which revolves around me. I do not know where this F..ng life will lead to.
Every time in life I expect a little from my efforts and I got little. These holes ruining my life on the same day at the same hour where I stand to expect something not from this commodious world. These were very small earlier, about to bit. Ignorance is their food and drink, they grow faster then lily. Brain is almost convinced by destructive way. What is next I really do not know, but I promise I can not take a step back now.
Who knows about next second.
Getting older
parts of body find detached space
I dont feel like my organs
wrinkled skin said the age is not yours

Beyond end

The world is spinning around and I am standing on the side of fence by holding it tightly.

No matter what I did in past few months when I had a dream in my mind to achieve happiness. Which seems to be lost from my life when I step-in the city called Gurgaon. Life is entirely different and beyond one's imaginations.
We did not understand the bandwidth of it. Human nature being funny throughout the lap, during young season it always try to convince elders on the flip-side these young creatures turn to old season they possess the same behavior which they got from their elders earlier. This is nothing just a confusion, fear and uncertainty

yesterday i was lying on my bed and just thinking about my past life which was not seems interesting. I recall few good memories and few indecent events happened with me. I suddenly want to weight my past with my achieving, and it tilted negatively. I failed to manage my half life. During this up and down my mind strikes on that part which is still left to be live.

Moving towards 'Beyond end'.
It is like the same as other phases of life one which you have lived, one which is left and one which is behind it. Priest always found to be good visionary and closest to God, so people think that they have better reply to this but to my mind this part of life would be balancing point for both present and beyond end. This sounds shit but world is always works on balancing principle. Everywhere you will found a balance between objects around you. We are the most valuable product for God.....can not complete it in one go.